As an only child, my parents gave me every material thing I desired. In my twenties I lived a fast-paced alcohol driven life. I became overconfident and arrogant. I taunted police, knowing that when I was arrested my father would be there to bail me out in minutes.
Then, crack cocaine took over my life. For 3 years I used crack daily and stopped only to sleep. I used my deli business as an ATM to finance my habit. Eventually, I lost everything. 
When I came through the doors of the Rescue Mission I was bitter and angry. I felt helpless. I had lived 40 years and had nothing to show for it. All I had were the clothes I was wearing. I hated myself and never thought I’d feel normal again.
It was winter and the first thing I received was a warm coat, gloves, a shirt, jeans and a brand new pair of shoes from “Blessingdale’s.”
My diabetes was out of control and I was in a lot of pain. The nurse-practitioner in the Free Clinic consulted with my previous doctor and gave me the correct medications.
I was overwhelmed and impressed with the Mission. I thought, “Who does all this for someone? Why do they do it?” As time went on I said, “I have to see what Jesus is all about and what makes this place work.”
So I entered the “New Life” program to get information. Four or five months into the program I said, “God, if You exist, I need You to help me believe.”
Then, I began understanding the Bible better and thought, “Let me apply what I’m learning and see if this works.”
My eyesight was getting worse. I was declared legally blind and became afraid again. Pastor Clark wrote out a verse for me, in large letters, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” (Phil. 4:6)
I thought, “How do I do this?” But I decided to let go of the worry and trust God. I began to realize there was a new man inside of me. One who led me to read the Bible more.
I never thought I’d rely on someone I can’t see, but I do. My eyesight is failing but I can see how God loves me and provides for me. I have an apartment, a job and my needs are met. Today, I have a sense of belonging and hope…a new perspective on life. It is Christ in me. Life is different and better now. Years ago I had wealth, now I have peace.
I want to thank everyone who makes the Rescue Mission possible. Thank you for the opportunity to be free…free to know God and rely on Him for my present and my future.